something things that I love are...

structure, organization, and a step by step plan. Ha. Right. No, really, I do! Yet these things are incredibly hard for me to bring into my life. I look at my kitchen sometimes with the black hole of papers--all important sitting in a pile,it gives me a headache and makes me feel almost anxious. I want so badly to put them away, I really want for them all to be in their own perfect place but yet it is honestly really challenging for me to tackle the papers. I may start the papers and then go and decide to make the bed or pick up Sophia's toys. I even bought folders for the damn papers! Having a toddler around and trying to keep things clean and organized is super challenging too any parent will tell you, you clean up and then as you finish they pour out the entire box of blocks. Yikes. I think this is why I like the aspect of running, where every day pretty much at the same time I get up and run, maybe a different route or type of work out but it's constant and it's structured, it's relaxing even though I'm not relaxing. Recently we purchased a new car (new for us) and I have vowed to myself to keep it clean and organized. No build up of papers or stuff. I do find once things are organized, I like to keep them that way--at least I try extra hard. It's calming, one less thing to try and fix or keep on top of. I think maybe having another piece of furniture would help me too. Part of the problem, possibly is I don't always have a good place to put things...maybe that's a lame excuse. But for now a more important problem that I also have to take on daily....what in the world to make for dinner?